Gray rose
The boy has failed in love, the girl has chosen others. He is so unreconciled, indulge in it the tobacco and wine every whole day, neglects one degree of lives, to him, this world has been already nonsensical, the life has already lost the reason to live on, except the agony, can not find anything else again.
Just at this time, God appeared, I wonder if it is because of sympathizing with, or take pity on. "Do you have any hope? " God asks.
"Bring to me to a place without feeling, I wish to gain for one month with one's own life. This world, there is no reason why I have again. " The boy says depressedly.
"All right. " God has considered it: "Really have such a world, but I can give you a chance. "
"What chance? "
"When you wanted to come back, only within this month, let a woman say ' I loved you ' to you, then you can return to here. "
"I will not want to come back. " The boy says. It smile close he eyes,lasting pieces of new world, that there are hes can painful world, there is not the world of love again.
This world is gray. This to react first boy, all before one's eyes have color, but this exactly world that a boy want perhaps. Will not be more painful. Then, the boy lives in this way, calm acceptance, wait for the death calmly.
speech Until that day, calm to break, he see the girl, that piece have similar appearance extremely with girl that him love deeply, even the sound, even used to it, so similar a person of even personality, he becomes speechless because of astonishment, know that escapes and will not open by oneself, no matter stay in any places by oneself, no matter the once world, or this gray world, loves this girl deeply forever oneself, can't forget forever. He has remembered the chance that God gives to him, then tell oneself: "Anyway it is unable to forget the emotion to her, then don't give up again, she gets rid of me once that world, then I recover her in this world, then take her home. We go back together. "
Hereafter, the boy will go to look for girls every day, go to her florist shop to buy a bunch of gray roses and see her off in the daytime, what how herself is to stand under her windowsill telling in the evening likes her, have not changed every whole day. But the girl has never promised, refuse except one, does not even have to hesitate. Does not the boy understand, oneself is not very bad absolutely, the girl does not have a boyfriend, why is unwilling to promise him? Even to consider never? Does she have any painful topic is it possible that?
Then, the boy can't help asking girls at last: "Why are you unwilling to give me a chance? "
"Because the rose here does not have a red one. " Answer of girl bring any emotion, also as joke.
But boy understand, getting gray among the world still more, forever only getting gray, where come on reds? However, love a person, what does it have to do with the color with the rose? If the value of the love just can be weighed with the color of the rose, so, he why be alone painful, why use all one's life coming, exchanging January for also? He only knows, since from knowing, the girl has never smiled at him, has always remarked ironically, let alone saying to oneself " I love you " ,it is instead but it is at this should have at world of emotion, sink deeper and deeper the piece oneself, can't free oneself, why? Is not there agony here? Why regret thought such? Have been played by God oneself? Use the life for all one's life, but bring the agony of one month, why?
The boy has laughed wildly and run out of the florist shop, leave girls alone alone, has not turned round and looked, also, that one missed on girl's face is helpless, a agony, a part wants to catch his impulse, the girl knows, this is not allowed.
That day, it was the last day of one month, the boy lay in bed, was waiting for one's own death. These days, he has not gone to look for girls again, want to forget, but can not forget. What does not stop appears out the girl in the heart, helpless, the agony, or, just the love to that girl? But these are not important, for a person who will die soon, everything will not seem important.
But the door of the room has been pushed open at this moment, and the person coming in, that woman who he loves deeply, and the carrying a basket of gray roses that has already thanked on hand of her. He knows, that is given to her every day by him. Why if boy's surprise can not utter a word, "? Why did you come? " Know perfectly well girls do not love oneself, but still move in a period of time unavoidably in the heart.
"Fool! " The first time, the girl no longer speaks to him with that ice-cold sound: "Your time limit is only one month, if I do not come today, can't see again? "
" please walk, I do not need anyone to be pitiful, " The boy's eyes midstream shows a silk agony, until the end, he is unable to catch one's own loved thing: "My way was chosen by myself. "
"Then, repent after you? Regret coming here? " The girl asks him.
"Regret. Choose to come here, it is a mistake at the beginning, I am still unable not to go to fall in love with you, unable to forget you, unable to be non- painful, unable to let you fall in love with me! " Cry hiding one in the boy's voice, but no one can recognize, except the girl.
"Do not understand? And then long long ago, I had already fallen in love with you! " Girl smile, imply one bitterness smile, have one light also.
The boy can't look at her believing, it is good for a moment, howled suddenly: "I have said I do not need to sympathize with! You do not need to bring this kind of lie to deceive me at all! "
"I have not deceived you. " The girl stands there, look at boys: "Since at the beginning of, I have already fallen in love with you, have begun from you buy the first gray rose. "
"It is impossible. " The boy shakes the head: "Otherwise, why did you say earlier, and must wait until today? "
"Because of "The girl is sad to smile: "It is with you how I want, how is the person that wants and likes oneself together, in your world, should not have fault? "
Boy shake the head, he understand, say with saying with together what does it have to do with?
"Have you forgotten your once hope? What you want is one merciless world. " The girl stops, then shown that most beautiful smile of hers, she knows, this has been a boy all the time
The smile wanted to see, that is the last present that she gives to the boy: "In this gray world, unless is the people who have had the agreement with God, the person like me, fall in love with a person, and say the meanings of those three words to him, represent the end of the life. "
The boy becomes speechless because of astonishment, while not finding time to think deeply yet, the girl says to him gently: "I do not want you to die, so, I love you, have only this life, only here. " The boy stretches out hands violently, want to catch girls, but the one that blew afloat in the wind is in a moment, have caught a gray sand. The gray rose petal descended slowly and lightly gently, the ones that left him left it on that gray sand on hand.
Pinching silently, is pinching tightly, the boy knew at last what a great mistake oneself had made. His gentle scratching one's own arm with the knife, only want to use and stain that red gray rose with blood, but see, even if one's own blood, has already become gray, just permeate through that thin and thin gray sand slowly.
"Have you regretted the original decision? " A person that God always came at the latest.
Boy lifting the head silently, look at him, nod, shake the head again: "Originally, the most excellent world was still original that one! Only because, no matter how painful, there, still possession hopes at least! " He says, looks at that gray petal, but has smiled, the first smile since he is since failing in love.
"Right? Now she has already said to you I love you, you can go back. " God plans to send him to go back smiling.
"Have not already used. Because I do not regret coming here, does not regret the original choice, if I select once again, I will come. " Look at spun yarn and petal in the hand, " my heart, has already offered as a gift and fallen, can not go back. "
The boy stands up, ask to God: "Give me a red rose, OK? "
"Have you forgotten? There can't be a red one in gray world. "
"Right? It seems I really require too much. " Looking at the clock on the wall, the boy pinches the fine sand in the hand tighter, there is that gray rose petal.
The clock has been struck for 12 times, all no longer existence, only have fine sand waving with the wind left. Sudden a piece of broken paper in the distant place, dimple the news on the same day indistinctly. Nobody knows what has happened there. In when does it know just, in sand drift of corner, grow appear one getting red rose unexpectedly, so scarlet, just like blood
